How strange it is to not have anyone needing anything. I feel just like the person who was so in demand just a few years ago. Where did everyone go.
I'm not complaining. I really am happy that they are learning independence. It is just that the lack of purpose is overwhelming.
Am I really here if no one is listening to me or seeing me? Do I really exist? Sure, I know God is not through with me, but what does he want me to be doing right now?
Is this "old age". Am I expected to just accept it? I have many more questions than I have answers.
Maybe that is what "old age" is,you finally have many more questions than answers. The number of answers hasn't changed......you just know of so many more questions.
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